Saturday, January 29, 2011

Can you help me?

It gets frustrating sometimes....knowing, KNOWING, that I have seen the blueprint for a new epoch on earth. Knowing that I know the secret for how we humans can all live in heaven on earth. Knowing that I have walked in this heaven on earth and can describe it to you in brilliant detail. Knowing that we are on the cusp of a time without war and famine and disease and cruelty. Knowing that we can all walk in that world with a very simple shift in how we think.

Shouting all of this at the top of my lungs in this blog, but seeing it fall on deaf ears. No one cares. No one wants to know more, wants to hear more, wants to let me show the way out of the maze we're in as humans. I am essentially saying I have the knowledge that will save the world and no one cares.

I am sure I sound crazy, narcissistic, like one with a serious Jesus complex. I get it, that's the mania...I get it. But I don't stop wanting to share this message. Those close to me who are healthy and stable and clear-headed say the message is not manic. It's worthy and important, this perfect knowledge I have been given of our post-religion Eden. My dear husband urges me to parse the message from the mania and keep talking and keep writing and get the word out.

I ask someone out there, someone who is listening...What more can I do? How can I write my message larger and louder? What do I need to do to get this message out? How can I get people to believe? How do I know someone, anyone, is listening or wants to know more or gets that I have seen the light and wants to see it too?

What do you want me to write in my next blog post? What questions can I answer? What will grab attention and keep it?

Wednesday, January 26, 2011


Quote from Nelson Mandela, 1994

“We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn’t serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are born to manifest the glory of God that is within us. All of us. And as we let our light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

A friend said that before Mandela went to jail, he was this “fireball” of energy and ideas and change. He was a bright light in a dark world. Then he was tested and vanquished and taken to jail for his bold words. When Mandela came back to the free world from jail, he exuded a much quieter confidence, a mettle tested strength. He sometimes felt doubtful or scared but he knew he had to be confident for others because they so believed in him. Sometimes we shine our lights not to exalt ourselves and to show we are better, but to help others see their own light. Those people are the leaders. Shine on.

A few more mantras than inspire:

There are two types of people in the world: Those who conform themselves to fit into the world, and those who change the world to suit them. Be the latter. The latter are those that make a difference and make the world better.

Be the change that you want to see in the world.

It’s not live like you are dying, it’s live like you can change the world. That will push you to act with purpose and to act quickly. To not waste time. You can all change the world.

Don't be afraid to take your gifts and strength and light and shine as brightly as you can. Be prideful and proud, nurture ego, ooze confidence. We are born loving ourselves first and are then taught to suppress that desire our whole lives. All of our religions want us to bow our heads and know our place and mind our manners and put others first. To make ourselves small so our faceless God can be larger than life. I want you to be larger than life. YOU. I want to see all your glory and bask in your light. You cannot be too proud for me.

Cut the selfless martyr crap and bring ego back where it belongs. First and foremost.

Friday, January 21, 2011

The common thread, the common problem

Four things that all religions have in common:

1) All worship something or someone external to yourself.

2) All put service to others ahead of service to yourself.

3) All tell you that you could be a better person, should be a better person, need to be a better person to be happy.

4) All ask you to model yourself after some deity or prophet to be that better person and inherit the promised land.

All these tenets are wrong. Dead wrong. It's why we're still searching for the promised land. We will never get there if we keep doing the same things wrong, thinking the same things wrong. In terms of religion, there has been nothing new under the sun for thousands of years. It's time for a new framework, it's time for a total overhaul.

We haven't improved the human condition in millenia, maybe ever. Now we are ready to make the great answer all the solve all our fulfill all the untapped potential of mind, body and spirit. You have no idea how unbelievable the next epoch will be....I've seen it and I promise it will blow you away and reach your soul in ways you never thought possible. Are you with me? Are you ready? Are you open minded enough to think in a whole new way?

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Religious illiteracy

Heard an interesting quote last night: "America is the most religious country in the world but also the most religiously illiterate." I tend to think one is a cause of the other. The most religious nation in the world is just that because of head in the sand devotion to only one faith for an entire lifetime, a faith you do not get to choose but are born into. We shout our faith at others loudly and often because we are afraid a differing voice may sway our beliefs. If you know other religions, study other religions, attend different religious services, you lose the stranglehold grip you have on yours. You cling to your denomination not quite so tightly. Would you pick a college major without taking classes in any other disciplines? Would you marry your spouse without dating any other contenders? Would you pick a job (for life) without going on any other interviews? I think not. Then why do we bring our children up in one and only one faith and teach them to practice that faith at the exclusion of all others?

Thinking you know the right way when you have tried no other way is not devout, it's ignorant. Our children would be well served to learn about the world's religions in elementary school and be given the chance to sample a variety of services. Maybe then they will see that no one religion is the right way, and in fact, the truth escapes us all right now. Don't give up though, we have searched for the truth for tens of thousands of years and the search is nearly over. The light is breaking over this dark world. A better way is coming, and literacy and learning and listening are the keys to discovering the new way.

Happy Beer Day Arkadelphia, and Happy 35th birthday to me! Love to you all....

Tuesday, January 18, 2011


Haven't been in heaven for a while but next time I am I will tell you and you can see what it looks like. Or what someone in heaven looks like.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

science and spirit

Journal post from Summer 2010:

I used to get glimpses of this miracle state, this individual heaven on earth, just like we all do. I always wondered how I could live in it all the time. I think that’s what we all wonder. No shit, I am getting there, I am getting so close. I live there most of the time now. I know you will love it when you live here too.

Mini miracles happen to me every day now, all the time. I’m the “lucky one” as Alison Krauss would say. Luck smiles on me. I smile back. I believe 100% in my and you, in our goodness, in our gifts. In love, luck and miracles. In the future for us, for all of us. Right now I have no doubts. I have figured out the very best world view for me and it is rapturous.

I’m in an elevated state of consciousness. Using more than 10% of my brain. Accessing so many varied centers of my brain: the love center, the memory center, the faith center, the compassion center, the empathy center, the ego center, the realism center, the existential center, the patience center, the hope center, the subliminal center, the dream center, the revelation center, the academic center, the linguistic center, the relationships center, the problem solving center, the funny center, the energy efficient center, the future time center, the multidimensional center. I know what is going to happen before it does, 80% of the time. But it’s not like I am watching a video of what is going to happen in ten minutes. It’s just that I know in ten minutes something is going to work out exactly as it should, and I delight in this knowledge and in the certainty I have that things will work right on time, right like they are supposed to. I let my life come to me, and it comes in beauty and miracles and wonder. Things I misplaced magically appear right when I need them too. This is a feat of my enhanced memory, which can recall stored visual memories and put them to use in the present when I need to apply them. It is quite remarkable. Dreams have become very useful too. I now remember most of my dreams and they are often visions for me of how to solve problems the next day. I know this happens to other people too, but it happens to me a lot more than it used to. Time for me now is not linear, it’s circular, flowing freely between past, present and future in my mind. There are not just four dimensions, there are unlimited dimensions, involving all brain centers mentioned above and many more. My brain is working fully in concert and collaboration with all of its depths, all of the dimensions. Because I believe good will happen for me, it does, I can predict it. FAITH. In myself, in the miracle of how the world works. And faith especially in others. I have become much better at listening to others and now I find that we work so well together, in friendly cooperation, eliciting wonder and delight in each of us and in how nice it is for things to work like magic between us. People are blowing my expectations away. I finally know who I am, every bit of me. I am finally understanding how the world works, and how we work, and how we will all be better. I am learning every day. While I sometimes fall back to the rat race, that’s happening less and less. I am rising more each day. I am so excited about this! I can’t wait to finish this book. I can’t wait to talk about what has happened to me, what is happening to me right now.

The difference between this post-religious theology and standard Christianity is that it embraces science and religion, rather than forcing you to choose between them. The beauty of heaven on earth as I have lived it is that science and spirit live together, integrated and interdependent. They are twin pursuits that coexist in perfect harmony. Science is the brain’s pursuit. Spirituality, or Religion as we know have come to call it, is the heart’s pursuit. God (Love) wants us to pursue both to the fullest, because in those pursuits we see the very best we can be. We will see that the profound beauty of science and spirit arise from the same place and both bring us answers to the most difficult questions. Science and spirit are twin gifts that best flourish when in awe and exultation of each other, hand in hand, knowing each other completely. Our brain and the love in our heart is our gift, our magic, our salvation.

Unstoppable love as felt in heaven allows us to access more of our brains. As we image the brain, we will find the common ground where science and spirit meet. This collaboration of our brain’s sacred sons means that anything is possible for us on earth. You will not believe what can be achieved when these two faiths lay down their swords and challenge life’s problems in concert. We will kick down the doors of science and faith like never imagined. Universal truths will be revealed and reconciled. Diseases will be cured, conflicts resolved, frontiers smashed, and mysteries unriddled. In the mean time, while we are working on these problems, we will be more compassionate and empathic and aware, so illnesses like AIDS and cancer won’t seem so terrifying because we won’t be alone. Awash in love, we will all offer solace and courage to each other. We will see that after death our souls will all reunite in this heaven on earth, so death will be put into perspective and seen as a graduation instead of a curtain call.

As I have said, heaven on earth is busy and collaborative, purposeful and productive. Can you imagine if we all actually worked in concert? I have seen it; this is exactly what happens in Heaven. Contagious cooperation, offering unparalleled access to the recesses of our minds.

We will see that life is comprised of 12 or 13 dimensions, and we will penetrate all of them. We will see that time is not linear, it is a circle, and we may well give death a run for her money. What’s true about our life on this earth will become clear to all of us. The way out of the morass that we find ourselves in will stand out in relief.

I know this because in heaven I am accessing more of my brain. My brain activity has gone from two dimensional to multi-dimensional. I am living in a different dimension. In the present, but in another dimension of this world. I have dimension-traveled to beyond my life, beyond my death. I have seen my life before me as an observer sees a play unfolding. Time continues to run as normal but I have stepped into the next room, where I can see answers …..

God, to have these guys in a room together again....